Thursday, September 12, 2013

Fellowship

Sometimes the best cure for weariness is being around others. Often times it is the opposite of what we think we need when in reality it is what we need the most. Of course God knows this and probably wishes we understood that we made us to crave relationships. In today's world of Facebook, Twitter, blogs, Pinterest, Instagram, e-mail, and text messaging we can easily and quickly forget that we need to hear a person's voice and have our own voices be heard. We forget how much we need the touch of someone else's hand or a hug or a prayer spoken out loud. We have become so technologically advanced that I fear we have lost the art of communicating with the person sitting right next to us.

Last night was the first night of the weekly Bible study I'm facilitating at church. It was good to be around other women that hold the same beliefs and want to encourage and be encouraged as I do. I am excited to see where this study of Nehemiah takes us and I am praying that each of us allows God to work in us and through us right where we are.

Excerpt from "Kisses from Katie" by Katie Davis

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

No News Is Good News???

So I went to the doctor today and had an ultrasound. The ultrasound tech seemed to take forever taking pictures. I didn't realize it, but I guess I started to fidget because she asked me if I could stay still just a little longer. They have a TV on the wall where I could see the images. The screen was split into 4 views and the one at the bottom switched to 3D for certain images.

I don't pretend to really know what was on the screen, yet from working at a Crisis Pregnancy Center I was able to recognize a few things. Again it felt like she was taking a long time, so of course I start to think there must be something terribly wrong. But then she tells me "EVERYTHING LOOKS NORMAL". I just sat there. She said she knew that even though that was great news that it didn't help figure out what was causing my symptoms.

The nurse came in took my blood pressure and weight. She then asked me if I was on any medications other than vitamins and ibuprofen. I said no. Then she asked if I was on any weight loss pills (I wasn't sure if I should be offended or not - lol).

Then I went to talk to Dr. C. One of the things I like about him is that he's funny enough to lighten the mood, but serious enough that you trust he's a good doctor. He said that the images from ultrasound were great, but what he was seeing is the opposite of what you usually expect to see with my symptoms. For right now we are treating it as a hormonal imbalance. I am going to take a different form of Pro-Vera on certain days every month and then we'll revisit it in a few months.

Dr. C asked if I wanted to revisit fertility treatments and I said no. He then told me about how he and his wife adopted their little girl from Russia. It helps having a doctor that has been where you are and is supportive of the option you're seeking. I'm thankful I found the one I did.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Tired

The past few weeks have been draining. Not from the usual external factors (i.e. work, family, housework, and so on), but internal. I haven't gone a lot into my physical issues and the cause of our infertility. But with it being September, PCOS Awareness month, I thought it may be time to go into more depth.

After our 1st anniversary Jason and I had a stressful few months with being robbed at our apartment and making the quick decision to stay with a friend until we could find a place we felt safe. About 2 months later I suspected either stress causing changes in my body or pregnancy. After a month of negative test I thought about going to the doctor, but then my symptoms went away and my body seemed as though it was getting back on track.

However, nothing from that point on was normal! I had horrible months and would skip months. I was gaining weight and having horrible headaches. My mood swings were out of control and I was exhausted all the time. We had just moved into a new house and I was in night school, so decided it was all stress. I ignored my symptoms (mostly out of fear) and knew things would "straighten out" if I just gave it time.

After a year of dealing with these symptoms for a year, still ignoring the physical symptoms and focusing on the emotional side, I was considering going to a counselor. Then I remembered in my psychology classes the teacher saying to always check physical symptoms with a primary care doctor first to make sure the correct thing is being treated. So I made the appointment I went. The first doctor I went to seemed very unconcerned. I was told to take vitamins, exercise, take time for myself, and to relax. According to her sometimes our bodies get out of sync and need to work itself out and that I had plenty of time to get pregnant later.

Three months later my symptoms had worsened and I went to another doctor at a different hospital. As I went over my symptoms with the nurse she seemed concerned and apologized that I had not received the proper attention in the past. When Dr. C came in he went over my symptoms again and went immediately into action. He said nothing about my symptoms were normal and that he wanted blood work done on me and made an appointment for Jason (just to rule out any issues with him - he's in perfect health). My test results were normal so he ordered a different blood panel. Still normal. He ordered a special ultrasound to see more clearly what could be going on. At that point he found that I have a bi-corneal uterus (heart shaped). We started Metformin to regulate me and then started fertility treatments. Each treatment failed and resulted in a cyst too large to do a treatment the next month. I fully realize many couples go through treatments much longer than we did, but I needed a break! Dr. C said he agreed that if I felt I needed a break than I should take a break. I stayed on the Metformin for a while to keep me regulated (instead of birth control since we still wanted to have a baby).

We agreed that if we weren't pregnant by of 5th Anniversary that we would fully focus on Adoption. I eventually went off the Metformin and felt fine for over a year without it. Now my symptoms are back. I've already had one doctor's appointment in which we tried a short term solution (Pro-Vera) until I was feeling better emotionally and physically to make a decision of method of treatment in October. This did not work and I have another appointment with Dr. C tomorrow to try and figure out what's going on and what path we want to take.

Needless to say, I'm tired.


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