Thursday, November 20, 2014

What Would Have Been


Today I miss you more than words could ever convey. I should have been meeting you face to face today, if I hadn't already. So many people were waiting for you! 

Your Dad and I went out of town this week as a distraction all the while knowing my thoughts would turn to you. They always do. There isn't a day that does by that I don't think of you. My baby girl you were and are my answer to so many prayers. I know you are in the arms of Jesus and that is my comfort.

Your Mom

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Moving Forward

Over the past few weeks a lot has happened.
Jason & his Mom Kaye
At the beginning of October Jason's mom went into the ER for what we thought was appendicitis. After exams and test it was determined that it may be a cyst. Her doctor's appointment that Monday revealed that she had Stage 1 Ovarian Cancer. The next day she had a full hysterectomy. Next month she will start 6 rounds of Chemo. We appreciate all your prayers and ask that you continue to pray as she heals.

During this time I was able to make my first Teeny Tears donation to Mobile Infirmary. I had been putting off going because I wasn't sure how I would respond. I admit the only difficult part was passing by the discharge hall way. I don't know about other hospitals, but MI has a hall that goes to an exit away from the main entrance for those leaving the hospital. Passing by that hall, not even really remembering it until this moment, I had a flood of memories. Memories of how it felt to leave with a memory box instead of my child. The nurse asking me what color car my husband was in and I couldn't remember so I described both. Feeling ridiculous being in a wheel chair when I felt like I could walk just fine. Getting in the car and not knowing what to do or say, because this was NOT how I saw my pregnancy ending. I pushed past it and walked to the elevators. Spoke with the nurses, who seemed excited to get in new items for their bereavement closet, and left.

The relaunching of our BonfireFunds Shirt was not a success. However, I feel as we try to raise Adoption Awareness as well as funds for our adoption there is some trail and error in how it is done. And we are so thankful to everyone that has donated and supported us so far in this journey.

Some exciting news is that our Formal Adoption Application was accepted!!!!!!!! We are now working on paperwork and other steps leading up to getting a date for our home study. There is a lot more work ahead and we are so incredibly excited!!!!

He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.”
Ecclesiastes 3:11

Thursday, November 6, 2014

Capture Your Grief Week 2 - 4

Capture Your Grief
Weeks 2 - 4

Day 12

Day 28
Day 31

Teeny Tears Donation

I finally made my first donation of Teeny Tears diapers to Mobile Infirmary.

I have also started on diapers for Springhill and Providence.